After all the ups and downs i knew who are best for me. I'm in a situation that i can't avoid or turn away. A phone call is what i gotten, and i have to reflect on what he told me. Couldn't make it obvious nor private. I only can share my emotions with my love ones. But thanks for filling answers to my doubts. So what i was a slut? Everyone has feelings, so do i. Even a blind man would feel the same too, but at least he couldn't see what's happening but i could. Even if I'm affected, i shouldn't bring myself down. Because, i know that i got friends that i could share my feelings with them. I'm sad, emotionally sad, physically sad. Everything contains in me is sad. Everything that he say, is replaying in my mind over and over again. I shouldn't have started and probably it wouldn't end so sudden. Even if solutions is made, decisions are not finalized. Amendments can still be made. So, is not that bad after all.  Although, I may sound silly, but facts are still facts. I can't change them. All i could is wait and see how it goes, regardless whether it is good or bad. I still got to accept it. Let fate decide the destiny that I'm gonna have. Misery is causing my heart to ache. God, please help me lighten the load that I'm carrying all this while. If you can't help, who else could? I'm sorry.