Shattered in millons

I've reflected on what my parents have told me,
I'm just a dumb girl who don't even know how to
take care of my first priority, family. My studies
are like shit. I guess I'm just pure stupid, i know.
Go ahead, criticize me, mock at me. Money are
difficult to earn. But then I'm using like nobody
business. I should change my attitude. I must
get at most Top 10 at my class. I don't wanna lose to
others. Now is time to switch my brains back to
study mode and revise my End of year paper.
Everytime i do, I'm always compare to others. Don't
you feel sad? It's kinda sucks like this, it's not easy as
you guys think you know. I won't be here for quite awhile
because i wanna study, oh well.. can't blame right?

I LOVE STUDYING I LOVE STUDYING I LOVE STUDYING.

Ok, shut up. I don't. But i have to make myself to.